I'm trying my best not to feel like an absolute failure today. I have been so gung ho about making things right and doing things perfectly...eating right, making time for exercise, breathing in deeply when I feel stressed. But I have already had a couple of days this week where eating right (as in, eating things not on my list of "ok" to consume -- I understand I still haven't talked about that, but I will get to that this weekend!), drinking enough water, and making time for exercise just hasn't happened.
Next week, after a month at my new job, I finally jump in head first. Full case load, the works. I'm scared to death. I don't even have a clue why. I ended up having an evaluation on my schedule for this upcoming Monday and I jumped up to the front desk IMMEDIATELY. "WAIT! This isn't supposed to happen yet! I am supposed to be doing evals in a few months, not now!" I was a little less distressed than that sounds, as my boss was up there as well. She said "Oh, you can do it!" For some reason, hearing her say that makes me feel a little less stressed out about the situation, at least right at this moment. I still have the weekend to get through.
Nonethless, I have myself in an absolute tizzy, and I'm so looking forward to getting home, throwing on pjs instead of work out clothing. If anyone is around online and reading this soon after I post....I need encouragement quick! By blog or tweet!
I feel like a failure for already feeling this way in the first week...I have been so driven and excited about these changes I'm making. I'm trying not to feel this way, because frankly, no one is a perfect. I will NEVER be perfect. You won't either.
So why, when we make one mistake, do we suddenly feel lacking as a person? Thought for the day....
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